Saturday, September 27, 2008 -{'4:31 PM
Title : [ *Sunshine Coast Love* ]
I finally woke up in my dreaming daze and found that happiness isn't that easily earned.
Especially love&relationship sector.
I know that i'm never really the girlfriend kind of girl and it's hard to adjust to being a one man's woman. I know this is selfish of me, but i don't want to let go of my boys.
I know that i'm never really the girlfriend kind of girl and it's hard to adjust to being a one man's woman. I know this is selfish of me, but i don't want to let go of my boys.
I don't think i can give up hanging out with my mates and compromising my lifestyle.
I just want to enjoy my total freedom.
I just want to enjoy my total freedom.
I've just been unleashed by my parents and i'm not ready to be controlled again.
Not by no one.
So baby i'm sorry, you don't make me happy enough to stay with you.
I have to go and make myself happy because i think i was actually better off without you in my life. I don't want to see my friends diminish from my life. I'm sorry but my friends are a higher priority in my life and you just don't let me include them into our lives.
It's unfair that your friends are included into our lives but my friends aren't allowed.
You've never compromised anything for for me.
I hate being controlled by you.
You control my time to eat when i'm with you
You control my time to study
You don't let me have time to my friends without chucking a pissy fit
You treat me like dirt when you don't have things your way
You critize my shopping habits, food likings and friends.
I realised your not my type of man and everytime i see you i'm getting less attracted to you.
But somehow i'm attached to you, long on your innovative ways of giving me that glimmer of kindness and doteness.
Thank you for the ride but it's my time to depart.
Thank you for the ride but it's my time to depart.
I still like you but maybe we need to rebuild on our friendship first.
Hence i went to a short holiday to drown my sorrows of heartbreak to the sunshine coast!
Hence i went to a short holiday to drown my sorrows of heartbreak to the sunshine coast!
David &Ryo
I took a 2 hrs train ride to Nambour where Darren picked me up and went shopping to Sunshine Plaza. Came home and basically had great family time together.
Next Day Ryo and David drove up from brisbane and we just got great calamaries & chips and slacked on the beach. They drove me back to brisbane.
Haha I felt so special because they came to just for me :)
So i had an excellent weekend at the sunshine coast and it's good to be back to brisbane.
Plan to head back to sunshine coast b4 the school holidays end.
Sunday, September 21, 2008 -{'12:04 AM
Title : [ Tellam's 18th! ]
I'm too lazy to elaborate on details so basically the run down went to hers and chit chat then headed to the valley. Afterwards JemDiz & I left tad bit early and had cracked up comedy in our own home. Woke up at 4:30am by my mr.babe and hanged with him till 6.30am and slept all day. but hey they say a picture is worth a 1000words then i got plenty baby. cam-whore all the way baby. Btw the Club for tonight was the Met
Lesson 1- Drunk People pisses off Taxi Drivers
Lesson 2 - Always have a man to pick up the pieces
Birthday Girl & the White Choc MudCake
Asian Siblings Yo!
Cam-Fight!
Hannah's always ready for a piccy.
Party Pose!
Hat-Whore!
JemDiz wants to, too!
Gah, i hate normal shots!
woohoo there's the proper biatch camwhore
Sometimes the alco takes control of us
It starts with the dilated eyes
Then the Crazy poses which actually meant to be normal
then we just look plain ugly in pics
love this pic!
gah don't you hate photos when your drunk?!
Home Sweet Home!
XOXO
Friday, September 19, 2008 -{'5:57 PM
Title : [ Tempermental hung overs ]
Well last night we waited till Rachael came back from Coffs Harbour to give her a birthday celebration. We filled the floor with balloons and got the music pumping.While waiting for Rachael, Tellam, JemDiz & I got started playing drinking games and i bought my lovely babe tellam some strawberry liqour for her 18th but we ended up drinking the whole litres within half an hour. To be honest, i remember majority of what happened but apparently i did a lot of stupid things. can't be bothered to re-cap what happened.
Right now i'm just feeling slightly cranky and so hung over!
I remember calling my baby but he was at the casino. I felt so rejected!
I know i had my own party but yeah i sorta wished he was at home waiting for me to come home to take care of me. :(
He was meant to call me when he got home but he failed to do so.
I don't want to get paranoid and push him away from our relationship but i was a extremely disappointed. Even though when i called him it was like 1.30am and he said he was coming home around 3.30-4am he still didn't call! Maybe i'm being over the top but yeah.
Sometimes if i don't see him for more than 10 hours i feel like it's a long time. But gah. need to stop this kind of thinking and let our relationship to be more free!!!!!
But i'm still pissed a him !~
Got 3 parties tonight and i will try to go to 2 but my main party is at tellams!
xoxo
Saturday, September 13, 2008 -{'11:59 PM
Title : [ Sacrifice & Compromise ]
You are currently my everything...I thought you didn't care but i know deep inside you do.
I know that you like me but is that enough?
I'm not your typical girl and i think maybe i'm too strong-willed for you.
I won't give up but may be we need to revaluate things.
Baby, i realize all your efforts to take care of me and dote on me.
That is not enough, sorry.
I'm thankful your so sweet to me at times but our personality tends to clash.
We are the type that gets our own ways but then that has to change and we have to learn how to compromise. you have to learn how to dote on me appropiately and show affection to me.
I still like you and i'm not going to leave you.
I know that your afraid of that but i will try my all before that option will occur in my mind.
We need to communicate.
I've sacrificed my wild ways and you've made me tame but you got to understand you have to change for me too. if you really like me enough you know what to do.
i want us to work. is that too much to ask for?
i dont want to quarrel with you but maybe that's better than not talking at all.
we need our 'own' time. it's fun hanging with mates but we need our own time to talk things out.
i hope tonight i'll plucker up the courage to talk to you about this.
because if i still feel this way then i'm sorry but i'll have to leave you to pursue my own happiness. i like you so much can't you see?
i miss you.
xoxo
Thursday, September 11, 2008 -{'4:15 AM
Title : [ sorry seems to be the hardest word to say ]
Recently i've been super stressed about everything.For once my life is going right, then why am i not contented and still yearn for something more?
I have my friends, family and relationship not to mention my studies.
Is this called being selfish?
I have my new found relationship and i guess i just want to quickly get pass the honeymoon period and be just a normal couple. I know that is hard because we have only just started.
Yet I've become subtly demanding and saying things that will push you away.
I don't want to, just that sometimes it's hard to have somebody by my side after so long.
It's just a reaction that i subconciously do. I don't mean to say those harsh words to try to repel you against me. Don't take it to heart. Just give me some time & affection to get used to our relationship. I'm just not used to somebody taking care of me.
I'm used to getting my way, i know i need to learn how to compromise to not only make you happy but myself too. I really like you and i want us to work.
I just need time to adjust and i'll be back to normal.
Happy 1 week Anniversary!
We don't need to celebrate months or weeks. Those aren't important just waiting for the years if that's possible :)
I want to celebrate a 1 year anniversary with you. So i only have 51 weeks to go huh?! LOL.
Studies have been overload and i'm hardly ever making any effort for it since i've been feeling quite blessed lately. I'm ready to get into the regime to some vigarous study. LOL (such a nerd!)
Things are looking brighter and i just pray it'll only just get better from here.
xoxo
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 -{'5:42 PM
Title : [ Bliss ]
It's been such a hetic couple of days.
Darren & Mum had a domestic and he ran all the way to my place (1.5 hr drive)
I had to put up with the both of them complaining against each other.
I'm always the peacemaker.
Eunice has suddenly decided to move to Brisbane as her husband is such an ass.
So I have to help her find a new place, trying to make her adjust to it.
I'm trying to maintain my new found relationship as well as spending time with my friends.
The most important of all, get on top of my studies. Which sadly i've neglected a lot lately.
Darren went home yesterday.
I can finally see *him* which I did lastnight.
I think i'm happy I have him.
Yesterday wasn't so sweet in terms of our date but I was still very contented.
We went to the movies, it was a last minute decision.
He brought along his flat mate but it was okay. The more the merrier!
He paid for everything for me again :)
He also bought my favourite chocolate! KitKat! *yums*
He always buys me chocolates.
We watched Harold & Kumar but I have already seen that movie a long time ago.
It was good =) Then went back to his house and he cooked for me.
It was meegoreng & hamburgers (weird combination, i know).
We sort of slow danced too but i had to ruin the moment by giggling.
Then we went to the 24 hour library and I helped him prepare for his exam today.
It was fun, I know it didn't seem special but it felt right and normal.
I can tell he was super stressed then we head back at 2.30am to our home.
He just gave me a goodnight kiss and we went back to our own apartments.
Goodluck sweety for your exam!
xoxo
Darren & Mum had a domestic and he ran all the way to my place (1.5 hr drive)
I had to put up with the both of them complaining against each other.
I'm always the peacemaker.
Eunice has suddenly decided to move to Brisbane as her husband is such an ass.
So I have to help her find a new place, trying to make her adjust to it.
I'm trying to maintain my new found relationship as well as spending time with my friends.
The most important of all, get on top of my studies. Which sadly i've neglected a lot lately.
Darren went home yesterday.
I can finally see *him* which I did lastnight.
I think i'm happy I have him.
Yesterday wasn't so sweet in terms of our date but I was still very contented.
We went to the movies, it was a last minute decision.
He brought along his flat mate but it was okay. The more the merrier!
He paid for everything for me again :)
He also bought my favourite chocolate! KitKat! *yums*
He always buys me chocolates.
We watched Harold & Kumar but I have already seen that movie a long time ago.
It was good =) Then went back to his house and he cooked for me.
It was meegoreng & hamburgers (weird combination, i know).
We sort of slow danced too but i had to ruin the moment by giggling.
Then we went to the 24 hour library and I helped him prepare for his exam today.
It was fun, I know it didn't seem special but it felt right and normal.
I can tell he was super stressed then we head back at 2.30am to our home.
He just gave me a goodnight kiss and we went back to our own apartments.
Goodluck sweety for your exam!
xoxo
Sunday, September 7, 2008 -{'12:32 AM
Title : [ My new toy boy ]
I haven't updated on my date yet from thursday!Yes it was great. It was my best first date ever by far.
Shall not admit that to him though.
Yes, he paid for EVERYTHING.
He carried my handbag and was a total gentleman.
He's my new boy but i'm not commited which i LOVE <3
I do like him but we're just going to see how it flows.
He's wonderful to me and sometimes it's good to let the man take the reign and take care of you.
That's all i shall reveal for now.
GAH i have a house inspection on tuesday!
Okay I'm going to cook my goumet steak with mushroom sauce!
(That's what i had on my first date with him btw too but we went to the beach house restruant)
xoxo
Wednesday, September 3, 2008 -{'5:26 AM
Title : [ *Friendship ]
It's time to let go of you. Seriously, sometimes friendship is taken for granted.
It's not about taking advantages of others.
Thank you for your wake up call because now i know who you really are.
I'm over it and till you clean up your act, I don't think I can ever face you again.
I have plenty of friends that are actually *there* for me in my times of need; good and bad.
I was being a good friend to indicate that your life is heading down the slumps but your are obviously surrounded by a cloud of illusions.
I wanted only the best for you. And i still do.
I'm not going to mope around and be sad.
Because i still have friends that loves and care for me.
Soon you'll see, your friends will diminsh.
You've lost 3 already, do you really need to lose more?
On a lighter note, I'm thankful what i have now, my life is getting better!
Yes, finally that guy has asked me on a date!
I feel so loved because my brother just drove from the sunshine coast and brought me dinner :)
I'm regaining my family, school and social life.
Balance is definitely the key.
Victor - you are my lifeline and if you weren't there i don't think i'd handle this ordeal.
I just want to use this opportunity to let my friends know that i love them!
Thank you for EVERYTHING!
xoxo
P.S wish me luck for my date :P
Monday, September 1, 2008 -{'4:04 AM
Title : [ *Memories that I'll always remember ]
Thank you for today.Eunice have a nice flight back to Brisbane.
Can't wait to catch up with you again.
Love you.
Please DATE me! - you know who you are. hahaha.
it's about time you got my number. hahahaa.
I'm a happy chap; lustation of a circle of tempation.
xoxo
