A dark shadow has hovered over me since you've haven't been around.
I know that things are completely ruined and mostly on my destructive behaviour.
It's so difficult to have told you what I felt but I'm adamat on hiding and trying to preserve anything we have left. I rather be acquitences then nothing at all.
I just really miss you.

I miss:
movie nights.
Clubing together.
After club sessions.
Cooking for you.
Our sunpatch encounter.
Trying to decorate your room.
Your smiles.
Your hugs.

I know i have to let go but it's excruciatingly challenging to do so.
I saw you the other day and the softness of your acknowlogement was painful yet rivitalising.
I really miss you.
I just miss you.